Created for a purpose

Whatever has come to be has already been named ….

Ecc 6:10a ESV 

Something about closing in on age fifty made me search my soul and ask myself,

“How did I get here so fast?” 

For 27 years, I had been a mom. Even though I had sometimes wished there was more to my story, motherhood was my calling. God had placed me here, and I had settled in quite comfortably. I loved being a mom. But somehow, I began to question my purpose. Everything on the outside looked great, but on the inside, I was slowly fading. 

What was next for my life? 

Did they even need me anymore? 

Why had darkness set in my heart? My heart and my head did not line up, and my life felt useless.

Dear mommas and mommas to be, I’m here to tell you those are lies from the enemy.

We were created for a purpose. We were chosen: Chosen to be that mom of those beautiful babies, chosen to be the CEO of a company, chosen to pour His love into those around you.

 “You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord, “and my servant whom I have chosen” (Isaiah 43:10a)

Whatever God has for you, He chose for you long ago. God placed your name on it. My season of motherhood wasn’t ending; it was just changing. I had become so comfortable in this season I didn’t want to let go, but it was time to step into a new season. God had placed my name on a calling. while He was forming me. When nothing looked familiar, God became more familiar. 

He was patient when I questioned Him. 

He held my hand when I didn’t know where to turn. 

He placed people in my life to walk alongside me. 

He strengthened me and my marriage.

My time as a mother of young children was never wasted. And your time is never wasted in the season He has for you. Embrace the new season, my friend, for this season was formed long ago.

God waste nothing

I kept telling myself over and over, “she’s just a dog.” I don’t know how many times I played it over and over in my head. I was hoping my heart would catch up to it so that it wouldn’t hurt so bad. For eight years, she was our shadow. She was there when my daughter walked through some of her most difficult days in college. She was more than a dog; she was a part of our heart. She was a member of our family.

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But, there was so much more taking place than just the loss of our fur baby. Through her loss, I knew God was teaching me a lesson on comfort.

God did not delight in my suffering. In fact, He wanted me to hand my hurt over to him. This was his battle, not mine. (1 Chr. 20:1)

I was sure God would take away my pain if I prayed hard enough. And when he didn’t I began to think God was punishing me. I had held so tight to the lie; I became bound with fear.

Sure it’s normal to be sad when you lose your family pet but so much more was taking place here. You see for years I had struggled with aniexty and depression. I used to beg God to just take it.

I didn’t want to struggle or be afraid anymore.

But it’s the struggle that grew me. He was teaching me that not all suffering was a form of punishment. He wanted me to consider joy in my pain. (James 1:2 )God didn’t promise to keep us comfortable. He promised to always stick by our side when we did suffer. (Duet. 31:8)

God changed my focus.

I didn’t want to face the pain of losing my sweet Annabelle, but God reminded me just how much he cared for me and my Annabelle.

In my grief, He sent me reminders of who He is…….

He is the creator of life.
He provides the means for us to take care of her when we didn’t know what we were facing.
He holds every tear.
He sends peace and confirmation in our decisions.
He brings transformation in our hearts from past hurts.
He wastes nothing.

1 Peter 4:13 But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s suffering, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.

Whatever God has chosen for you, it was given to you long ago.

Whatever has come to be has already been named, and it is known what man is, and that he is not able to dispute with One stronger than he. Ecclesiastes 6:10 ESV

Something about closing in on age 50 made me search my soul and ask myself “How did I get here so fast?” I was entering into a new season of life, one that so many had bragged about.

For 27 years I had been a mom. Perio. Even though I had sometimes wished there was more to my story, motherhood was definitely my calling. God had placed me here and I had settled in quite comfortably. I loved being a mom. But somehow I began to question my purpose.

Would I be worth something now if I had just finished college?

Do I even have a purpose anymore?

Should I have done something different with my life?

My two beautiful daughters had just married the men of their dreams. My son was finishing college and beginning his career. What more could a mom want, right? Everything on the outside looked great but on the inside I was slowly fading. Into what I felt like was a nobody with no purpose.

Did they even need me at all?

I had struggled with depression off and on over the years. Some seasons were worse than others, some offset with tragedy, but this time I couldn’t understand why darkness had set in my heart. Wasn’t I in my “prime”?
My heart sure didn’t match my feelings and my life became hopeless, at least that’s what my mind was telling me.

I wasn’t contributing to this family anymore.

Oh mommas and mommas to be, I’m here to tell you those are pure lies from the enemy; And to those of you whose struggle has nothing to do with motherhood, the same applies to you. You were created for a purpose. You were chosen: Chosen to be that mom of those beautiful babies, chosen to be the CEO of a company, chosen to take care of an elderly parent, chosen to pour His love into those around you.

“You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord, “and my servant whom I have chosen” Isaiah 43:10a

Whatever God had chosen for you, it has been given to you long ago. God placed your name on it. He even states we are not to dispute with the One stronger than us. Who was I to argue with God? Ecc 6:10

My season of motherhood wasn’t done it was just changing. I had become so comfortable in that season I had forgotten just Who I belong to. It was time to step into a new season. God had placed my name on a calling , it just didn’t look familiar yet.

If only God would just reveal my next steps, things would be easier, right? Sure He’s God and nothing is impossible with Him. But my friend, this is not always how our God works. He showed me just how unfamiliar life can be in my transition to the next season.

The one thing that was familiar was His character.

He was patient when I questioned Him.

He held my hand when I didn’t know where to turn. “I will take you by the hand and keep you” Isaiah 42:6

He placed people in my life that spoke truth over me.

He strengthened my marriage like never before in 30 years.

He even showed me my next steps, one step at a time.

My time as a mother of young children was never wasted. And your time is never wasted in the season He has for you. Embrace the new season my friend. Put your full trust in Him because He wants to walk with you in each season. The season He formed for you long ago.

 

 Heavenly Father,

Thank you for choosing me in this season. Help me to trust You when I don’t recognize my next steps. I lift up to you those who struggle with Whose they are and the purpose you called them to. What an honor to be chosen by you, Father.

Bluebirds are an important message from angels.

Each morning as I sit in my special place to meet with Jesus I hoped to find something new in Him. Im bundled up with a soft blanket, coffee in hand, feet tucked behind me in my wicker chair. Listening to the sights and sounds of His creation is soothing to my soul.

We have the privilege of living in the outskirts of the city so it wasn’t unusual to see so much of Gods creation all around me. But this is particular morning I was fascinated by a family of bluebirds. We have two bluebird houses in our backyard but for the first time in years a family decided our home was their home. Five sweet little bluebird eggs lay in the nest. 

I’ve heard when a Cardnal lands in your yard it’s a visit from a loved one who has passed away. It got my curiosity up to research a bluebird and its meaning.

I wanted to know more about our new neighbors….I had no idea how accurate a bluebirds meaning was in sink with my life and the season I was currently in! 

Bluebirds are an important message from Angels. I was told in my research that when a bluebird appears in your life we should pay attention and to what it has to say to our heart. Here are some interesting things I found about the bluebird…

                                               
A bluebird is a symbol of joy and happiness and when it appears it is a reminder of all the beauty and nature around me. Colossians 1:14 ….for in Him all things were created…..
Bluebirds are also a symbol of something good is about to come in your life. 

This next one kind of blew me away only because I was coming out of a season of darkness wondering if I had taken the right steps in my life. If the bluebird appears in your life often it could possibly be your spirit animal and “it is telling you that something you’ve done is the right thing and you shouldn’t worry.” It went on to say that Bluebirds can appear in your dreams as well as in person and if so its a symbol that your difficult situation is almost over.

Let me be clear I’m not sure about spirit animals or even what dreams mean sometimes but I do know my God created all things. He even mentions in His word how He takes care of the sparrow. Psalms 84:3 Even the sparrow finds a home, and the swallow builds her nest and raises her young at a place near your altar….

God was using that family of bluebirds to speak to my heart that day. Many times when we are stepping out of the valley we want to look back. I have questioned my past mistakes which lead to a downward spiral of aniexty and depression. The enemy wanted to remind me daily of my worthlessness and mistakes.

BUT GOD, He wanted me to know just how much I’m loved even when I make mistakes. He’s power rose up in me that day letting me know He was near my alter. 

One last fact I’d like to share with you about the bluebird ……even though it is uncertain if bluebirds mate for life, when the time comes for the female bluebird to make her nest the father (mate) stands over the nest and flaps his wings in order to protect any predators from harming the nest. He becomes the great protector only to leave his mate to provide food for her as she sits on her eggs. What a great reminder of who God is and how he provides and protects!

Isaiah 40:11 He will feed his flock like a Sheppard. He will carry the lambs in his arms, holding them close to his heart. He will gently lead the mother sheep with their young. 

Isaiah 41:31 But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar on wings like eagles. 

I got to witness this first hand that day God used the beautiful bluebirds to display His beautiful story of redemption in my life. 

Hidden pride

What does it look like for God to take our sin and brokenness and turn it into good for His glory? 

For years I have been weighed down with guilt and shame from past events in my life. Although, I have known that my sins are covered by Jesus’ blood I allowed a bondage of disbelief to set deep into my heart. Leaving me empty and uncertain of Jesus’ love, past sins would creep in like water that washes over a road making the road unseen and impassable. 

That was my heart. 

Silence was loud and I couldn’t understand why my God who is full of love refused to answer me. Why wouldn’t He meet me in this place to deliver me from shame and guilt? The answer? Because He already had met me here many times! My bondage was disbelief shaped in the form of pride. Time and time again the Lord sought after me sending me His love, mercy and grace. But I was spritually blind because I couldn’t see pride that has sunk deep into my heart. All I could see was unworthiness, unforgivness and His lack of my undeserved love. That my friend? That is hidden pride!
The free gift that Jesus so freely gave me was unaccepted by me. I asked myself, why did Jesus die? To look good? No! Was He truly our King? Yes! He stepped out of heaven just for me and just for you. He wanted to cover us with His blood for our sins so we could be with Him forever! His gift was Himself! 

I was rejecting His love with my disbelief. Pride was my bondage. His truth wasn’t setting me free because I wasn’t accepting His free gift. Jesus was waiting for me to believe so that He could meet me on a deeper level to penatrate my heart and make it whole again….

It was then I realize I have to choose to believe that He gave His life for me. When He sees me He sees me covered in His blood that washed me clean. I am forgiven! I am loved! I am whole! Nothing can separate us from His love not even my pride. Choose to meet with Him daily and accept His love for you too! 

 Lord, thank you for always leaving the ninety nine for me. Thank you for showing me that my pride was standing in the way of my belief. I choose to unwrap Your free gift of love, mercy and grace daily! 

But people who aren’t spiritual can’t receive these truths from Gods Spirit. It all sounds foolish to them and they can’t understand it, for only those who are spiritual can understand what the Spirit means. 1 corinthians 2:14

Christ died for us so that, whether we are dead or alive when he returns, we can live with him forever. 1 Thessalonians 5:10

If only there was a switch to turn off our pain.

John 12:35-36 Jesus replied, “My light will shine for you just a little longer. Walk in the light while you can, so the darkness will not overtake you. Those who walk in the darknes cannot see where they are going. Put your trust in the light while there is still time; then you will become children of the light.

Have you ever had something draw you out of bed in the middle of the night?

It’s pitch dark. It’s dark but you think you are familiar enough with your surroundings. You depend on your senses to guide you.

You know where the bed is, the night stand or- in my house -the laundry basket full of clothes.

You try to avoid the light switch so you don’t wake anyone or shock your eyesight.

You are convinced you can do this without light.

You begin to feel your way. You run your hands up the door frame looking for something familiar to grasp.

In shock you find it alright. Your little toe finds the corner or that night stand or your shin finds the laundry basket.

In that moment, the only thing you find is pain.

If only there was a switch to turn off that pain.

We murmur to ourselves, “if only I would have reached for the light switch sooner maybe I could have avoided this pain.”

Friend, I am very familiar with darkness in my life. One that left me spiritually dark. I had forgotten where my light came from. I tried to do it my way. I walked in darkness forgetting who is my true light.

Jesus.

Such darkness lead me to fear, paralyzing fear.

Suffering is never easy. In desperation to be free, I searched for many things to take away the pain.

… but my searching for the wrong things left me in the dark.

Darkness can be very scary when we can’t see the path in front of us.

He never promised to take away my pain in the darkness and maybe you are wondering this too?

Why would God allow me to experience this suffering?

Doesn’t He love me?

Of course He loves me.

He loves you too that’s why he gave up his life because he loves us. John 3:16

God wants to make Himself known in our darkness. He says “I will turn darkness to light.” He wants to hold us by His right hand and guide us through the darkness, so healing can begin.

Reach for His hand my friend. Seek him with all your heart especially in the dark. Let Him be the light that lights your path one step at a time.

Not only will He lead us back to the light, He makes us children of light to pass the light other people who walk in darkness.

Put your trust in the light while there is still time; then you will become children of the light.

He is our eternal light switch.

Isaiah 42:16 says… I will lead the blind by a way they did not know; I will guide them on paths they have not known. I will turn darkness to light in front of them and rough places into level ground. This is what I will do for them, and I will not forsake them.

God wants to restore the dark places of our heart.

The heart is an amazing organ. It’s so small but plays such a big part in our bodies. No matter how small or big our stature is, it still remains the size of a fist.

It gives life to our entire body.

When a part of the heart stops functioning everything is effected. The other chambers have to work harder to cover the dying chamber.

Have you ever seen a heart attack on film or ultrasound? It builds pressure and turns dark and gray. Then a part of the heart begins to die.

When we allow lies from hurt, rejection and fear to take root in our hearts it becomes hardened, non-functional and then begins to die. Other parts of us become affected too.

Our minds. Our actions. Depression. Aniexty. Fear.

I know this from a lie I believed. In order to trust God it had to come through tragedy. That meant He wanted to harm me to allow me to trust Him. I don’t know about you but I find it hard to trust someone who hurts me. A lie from the enemy that had taken root into my heart….

And fear began to follow….

Would I lose a child?

Would I get cancer?

Would my spouse leave me?

I prayed God would forgive me for believing in this lie and to remove it from my heart. When God removes a lie from you He must replace it with truth. I asked Him to fill the lie with truth to soften my heart, and restore the blood flow into all my heart chambers. I wanted Him to fill me so full that it would overflow outside my body onto others.

He reminded me that He is with me always.

He has every hair numbered on my head.

He cares for me.

He will never leave me or forsake me.

He chose me.

He came to give me life more abundantly.

When a stint is put into the heart chamber to allow blood to flow it Immediately releases pressure and life begins to flow back into the chambers. Life is restored!!

Friend, is there a lie you need to break agreement with? Ask God to remove the lie embedded in your heart. Ask Him to remove those dark places that the blood has stopped flowing.

And watch Him work…..

Trust Him with everything. He is a God of life and restoration!

Father thank you for always loving us back to restoration. You hold the stints to our heart. Thank you for forgiveness no matter what we have done or what has happen to us. Thank you for giving life that flows through us.

Don’t rush it!

Life always seem to be at full speed. There are never dull moments for a mom of three kids two of which are still teenagers and the oldest two in college. Sometimes I wished for a support group called “mothers of three” after all we are an odd number. You try dividing one piece of gum three ways.  

Three different moments in time……Now 20, 18 & 16. I love being a mom especially when they reach new mile stones. Graduation, college, baptism, new relationships, love, driving a car for the first time. I remember holding each one of them for the first time thinking how can I love more than one child? Of course I’m happy to say it was easy after all fingers and toes were accounted for and hearing that first cry. When I brought each one home it got a little harder and I remember thinking diapers, bottles, late night feedings, toys everywhere oh my! And then there was blood sweat and tears if we had to go anywhere!

Oh how those days where so hard so I thought. My momma used to say that these times will pass and it will be so sad…”you will miss these days don’t rush it” ha! Now I look at them shaving, driving, late night worries, did they make it ok? And trust  me I have heard every ambulance, police car & fire truck in Madison Co. in my sleep! Will they make the right choices in friends? Will they make the right choices period? Will they stay in church? Will they seek their Savior in all things? Well my momma was right, aren’t they all?

We recently took a trip to the beach letting each sibling take a sweetheart with them. My mom calls them the Beau’s and chick’s referring to boyfriends and girlfriends. Side note: never try this if you are uncertain of their relationships in any way. It can really mess up a vacation! I am blessed to say this was not the case. We never had to worry about a thing. In fact, they all played like they were little again. It overjoyed my heart to watch them dive for sand dollars and hermit crabs and come up for air only to giggle at one another. They rode the wet banana, rented mopeds, surfed on paddle boards, dug for seashell, drove a boat to shell island only to have the dolphins chase us back and endured the biting flys with no complaints! I love watching their facing light up and giggling at the silliest things of life! My heart was so full! It was like they were 3, 5 & 7 again.

But there was this one moment that captured it all for me. It was the last day and we were all feeling that moment of ughhh we have to leave tomorrow. We all know that feeling. We had dinner plans with other family so we were on a time crunch even the cabana boys were pulling up the cushions out for under us!

I was relaxing on my hard wooden lounger deciding to move on to the sand on a float feeling the sun beat down on me loving every breath. I noticed a young couple teaching their first born son (who looked to be about 3) how to play pattle ball. The 3 year old  would attempt to hit the ball hitting it about every 3rd try. Each time he hit it he would look up at his mother and with that gleem in his eye begging for approval. After a few moments of confidence he decided to push his mother out of the way telling her to move he had this. I wanted to run to her and say “you will be sad one day ..you will miss this don’t rush it! ” just look how big they are now.

But then God gave me a precious moment in time. I looked back at my blessings of life digging vigorously in the sand trying to dig the biggest hole they could just like little kids looking up at us from time to time asking “you think we could hit water?” The boys even found a Tonka truck to assist them with sand removal making every truck noise they could. The girls were crushing pretzels up throwing them in the air coaxing every seagull in the panhandle to fly around us. I soaked up every moment. I didn’t want it to end. I didn’t want to rush it anymore! In my eyes they were 3, 5 & 7 again.

If I could only go back in time I wouldn’t rush it. I would have all the patiences in the world. I would live as if every moment had its own calendar. It does make me sad, I do miss it and I sure wouldn’t rush it for anything in the world……..#stoptheclock

Fear of inconvenience

There are so many things in life that hold us back from knowing God on a deeper level. For me? It’s fear.

Fear of not being good enough.

Fear of rejection.

But the one fear that cripples me the most? The fear of not allowing Him to use me for His purpose or what He created me to be.

What if He doesn’t chose me?

If I ignore His calling will He move on to someone else?

To be honest, I think I didn’t want to be inconvenienced. Was it fear or pride? If He chose me would He call me to mission work in Africa? Would I have to adopt a child? Would I have to minister to that needy friend?

I’ve lived with this fear of inconvenience for a long time. But I knew there was more to Jesus.

There is a specific memory etched in my mind. For me journaling has been a time to express my heart to Jesus. One day as I sat down to write I felt the Lord calling me to minister to women. I knew I had a heart and passion for other women who struggled with fear, aniexty, guilt and shame. Why? Because I had walked this Journey only to find out God never intended for any of us to walk. But now he wanted to use it for His glory to set other women free.

I wanted to see other women free from what was binding them from knowing Jesus.

He had gifted me with mercy, compassion and hospitality.

What was holding me back? I knew there was more to Jesus and I wanted it.

But I would have to expose my heart …… hmm. “Beside God I pray for those women isn’t that enough?”

That day I asked Him to remove that wall of fear and I would do whatever he had for me to do.

Yes! I said it ……what.ever.

You see fear was keeping me from freely giving Him my everything. My connivence, my comfort didn’t want to be interrupted.

I wondered how many women go through this? How many women have amazing talents to share but don’t because they they were crippled by fear or anything that kept them from Jesus.

Little did I know if only I had given my full heart to Him he actually would give me something I loved.

This came as a great surprise to me.

He wants to bless us and use us. And the best part we need nothing but a willing heart!

Fear is a liar! See our Heavenly Father loves us so much he wants us have life more abundantly. That day God broke down that wall of fear in me all I had to do is ask him and be willing to see what he wanted from from me.

A life of bringing other women to know him so they don’t have to live with that same wall that would keep them from giving themselves fully. Someday I might go to Africa, someday I might adopt a baby but either way He will give me what I need to carry out those plans. Sure I still fear things at times but my Savior always reminds me of that day. What holds you back? #fearless#purelove#truth#freedom

1 John 4:18 there is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

John 8:32 Then you will know the truth, and the truth shall set you free.

Princess of the world or daughter of THE King

Her beautiful red ringlets bounced around so that you couldn’t tell which end was coming from the top her head. Little pink tutus that hung to her knees with stains dribbled down the front because we were not allowed to remove it long enough to be washed.

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Silky brown hair with amazing green eyes and eyelash that touched her eyebrows and a sweet soft voice.

Pink tight, hair bows, ballet slippers, baby dolls, strollers, pretend iron with ironing board, hair glitter, make up for a little flawless face. Dress up clothes that could drape an entire mansion with plastic heels that made a clicking noise you will never forget…”mommy do I look pretty?”

These are a few memories from sweet little girls. If you have girls you are all to familiar with these things. With girls you never had a tube of lipstick with a smooth top or little slanted edge of perfection. Or a couch without little wipes of “pingernail polish” that no one knew anything about.

Oh how I loved my girls! They were so full of life and real live baby dolls to play dress up. On sunny days I would bath them and curl their hair, well except my little red head if you could catch her long enough it was only to brush her curls out of her eyes. I would place them in the yard with my flowers- more like buttercups- or put them in my rocking chair on the front porch and take pictures. Most days at the Powers house were play days. We would work puzzles and read books and color, play with play dough. Funny I can never remember nap times but I’m sure we took them or maybe that’s why I collapsed at night.

I love being a mom! I even remember the not -so-sweet times. Like day my sweet little soft spoken silky brown haired girl was running through the house -I’m sure chasing her sister -and fell face first smacking her little lip directly to the kitchen floor. Tears begin to stream and blood begin to pour and her lip begin to swell. I remember as if it was yesterday in the midst of all the craziness and panic I thought to myself ” If I had not been there would some else have picked her up and loved her and held her and kissed her little bloody lip just like I would have?” Probably not because I am her mom.

Do you remember that feeling of no one could take care of your kids like you could? Although, I’m sure there are some wonderful daycares, Nanny’s and grandparents out there that are pretty close.

I was so very blessed to be able to stay home with all three of my children. I wouldn’t have traded it for the world or a career. It was very important that we let our kids be kids.

But I often wonder did I teach them all the right things?

Wipe your mouth. Pull your dress down. Stand up straight. Wipe your nose and use your manners!!

Those were the easy ones….. girls learn so early to live like a princesses. Almost every girl wants to be a princess and live in that castle with Prince Charming. I think about all those dress up clothes and make up and just trying to look pretty. I mean what girl doesn’t want to look pretty or be noticed, right?!

Noticed! Noticed by who? The Prince? Or the King? I couldn’t teach them enough about how to get noticed by the King- not that I was pushing them to the prince either. I would have spent more time preparing my princess’ to be a daughters of the King. Don’t get me wrong I do feel like we did a lot of right too. We took them to church, read all the bible story and shielded them from most things of the world.

As I thought back to that day my sweet one busted her lip, God reminded me that there was someone even better than me who could take care of my babies and that was the one true King, King Jesus!

My daughters are amazing!

The air still fills up with all those smells of hairspray, finger nail polish and perfume. They still come running through the house wanting to know if they look pretty. The clicking noises from the plastic shoes changed a little bit to real heels and boots and yes I’m still correcting them and always will.

Sit up straight! Be nice! Study Gods word! Love on someone today! I do want that Prince Charming for both of my girls and I do want my son to be that Prince to some sweet princess one day. But one things for sure I don’t want them to bypass The King and In order to get to the prince you must KNOW the King.

1peter 3: 4 but the inner person of the heart, the lasting beauty of a gentle and tranquil spirit, which is precious in God’s sight.

Deuteronomy 10: 12 Now, Israel, what does the LORD your God require of you except to revere him, to obey all his commandments, to love him, to serve him with all your mind and being,

Really God?

There have been days in my past the weight of pain, doubt, unbelief, lies, fear, aniexty, depression weighted over. Some days it was as if someone had placed a wet blanket up against my face and I couldn’t catch my breath.

So many times I would God ask why?

I would try to surrender it all.

I desperately wanted freedom in Christ.

I take two steps forward and three backwards.

I couldn’t feel the hope.

Isn’t He God? Can’t He fix this?

I wanted to throw my hands up and say “Really God? ”

Even though His love never stops and His word is alive, I could not feel it.  

I even asked God…..”Why was the enemy’s voice stronger than yours, God?”

If you my friend have ever felt this way let me share some truths that God revealed to me during my time of darkness.

First, I opened up His word even when it didn’t make sense.

In the book of Job God only spoke at the beginning and the end of the whole book. And its forty-two chapters long. Job was the perfect example of someone shared in this darkness.

He had it all. God even called him blameless. Job 1:1 If anyone had a right to question what God was doing it was Job. He was a righteous man who lost everything he had, even his health.

Just because Job couldn’t hear God didn’t mean He wasn’t there.

Second, I listened to God.

As I listened, I learned I don’t have to have all the answers that’s Gods job. I heard someone say one time “sometimes God only lights the path in front of you to take the next step.” I needed light to shine in my darkness. God became the light unto my path. Psalms 119:105-106

As healing began, some things began to make sense. Although, I didn’t have all the answers, I became ok with that.

And thirdly, my favorite lesson ….

I learned if I want freedom I must live in freedom and accept His freedom. This my friend is why He went to the cross.

God laid a very important verse on my heart during this time of healing.

Everywhere I turned I would hear this verse. John 8:32 You know the truth and the truth will set you free. Im a firm believer in researching what God says so I set out to do this very thing.

In John 8 Jesus is talking to the Jews. He trying to get the them to understand true freedom, accept Him and know just He he is. Some understood and some did not. In John 8: 30-47.

Jesus wants us to know Him. He wants to speak truth into us so that He can demolish the lies we believe.

All along Jesus was speaking to me. He never hid His love. Freedom came with a price. A price He already paid and He’s speaking to you too. He said it himself.

He will light your path in darkness.

Learn from His word and believe it.

Accept His freedom, He wants you to be free.

Sharing my ❤️ to Freedom

Blogging is a way for me to share with others how God has worked in my life. My prayer is you will be set free.

Free from lies.

Free from shame.

Free from guilt.

Free from doubt.

Free from fear.

Free from anything that keeps you from knowing the real truth of Jesus.

Knowing truth sets us free!

Free to love Him, ourselves and others! ❤️

#trans4mingheart #freedom